Love Story : A Dream beginning

'No, I was the one who wanted to die.'
She turned back to the piano. In the last days of her life, she had finally realised her grand dream: to play with heart and soul, for as long as she wanted and whenever the mood took her. It didn't matter to her that her only audience was a young schizophrenic; he seemed to understand the music, and that was what mattered.

The above part is not the part of the love story, it's just a section of a book i am currently reading "veronika Decides to Die" from Paulo Coelho. I liked the part a lot and wanted to share it with u guys. Be positive and do whatever ur heart desires or else...

Have u ever had a day when everything went perfect well near to perfect, i missed a small fire place. Just before Dusk, Light Rain and wind, warm enough to sit outside cold enough for her to smug upto to me //dream moment// if there was any. silence speaking a thousand words. an hour passed with the blink of the eye but the moment has been captured. this 1 moment will never end in my heart or in my eyes.

The rest as they say is history. keep in touch

I am tired

She is angry with me. I don't know wht to do. I luv her too much to think even think abt gettn angry with her.

Party today at office hope 2 enjoy it.

I wrote 2 a lng lost frnd yesterday and got her reply. she was real glad to get a mail from me. we had this chat fling going on for a while. i had met her in yahoo chat around 5 yrs ago and we exchanged mails for more then 2 yrs, mostly love letters but then lost contact over the last couple of yrs. it was really wonderful. feels like a new beginnning since most of the people i write 2 hardly any1 ever replies.

hey did i tell u Girish sir is finally married, he had sent an invitation but couldn't attend cause the marriage was in Chennai, wish him a gr8 and happy marriage life. Suman is back in SSI after her disappearence for over a yr. she is the same old joly person even after her marriage, but these days i have seen her with this foreign lady i don't know who

there was a fire at the factory yesterday, dad incurred a huge loss around 50 grands. but the insurance should cover it up. and the Scrum Master Certification for october end got cancelled. don't know when will it happen. i so badly wanted to attend it. but in a way it's a good thing cause i couldn't get the nerve to ask dad for money to attend it after the loss of yesterday. hope it happens soon though.

well as u c things have been happening pretty much fast in the last couple of days. let's just c where it leeds to ......

But I love her 2 much 2 loose her right now, so i am prepared to do anything to make this work

Faith

Faith, a very strange word. You can hear it all over the world but still people have absolutely no idea of what it means or at least tht's wht i believe. If something in life goes wrong we blame God. We question our Faith and the justice of God. But then how much is God involved in our day to day life. Does God pull strings as to who get's what and who does not. Does god have a big book where the events of our life are recorded and happiness & grief distributed as per the book which god consults every morning and says ok today this person is going to get a million dollors in a lottery and the other person is going to have his/her leg broken.

Or god simply decides based on if u worshiped him or not or if you made a mistake in some ritual. For example say you were supposed to fast for 24 hrs but u fasted for only 23 hrs 59 min so god will punish you.

Or god is an ever loving, forgiving person who is there to help us live our life giving us strength. He does not control nature and does not interfere with it. He does not distinguish between a thief or saint but lets nature take its own course.

I believe in a God that is not bias but loves all his beings no matter what. Also I believe in a God who is there to give me strength in my darkest moment, a God who makes me feel love and loved. You know wht's the greatest gift you can give someone. We all know it's not money or for that matter something tht person dreamt of having. Strangly enough it's not friendship or love. You can't give ur frndship, effection or love to someone if they will not take it. The greatest gift to anyone is the "feeling of being loved and wanted" is what you can give. If somebody makes me feel that loved and that my existence on earth is not a waste then that's the greatest gift that anyone can give me. It's the most valuable gift cause you can live a lifetime only on the power of this gift. If you don't have this gift from your fellow people then life becomes a waste and you start questioning your existence and those are the people who commit suicide.

Another Day and Another Waste

Talked with Bishnu Sir today, came to the conclusion tht nothing can be done. We are as helpless as anyone working with Microsoft Products. There is no 1 to save u from the pain, agony. it's like a toothache tht just won't go away no matter wht u may try. Like there is no cure to cold but to hope tht one day u will wake up and it will be gone, there is no cure to bishnu sir at KCM then to hope tht one day u will wake up and he will be gone.

anywaz on a happier note i met her again yesterday. had lunch with her. she didn't want 2 let me come back. took me over half an hour to convince and then also she did not let me go easily. i didn't know wht to feel then, happy to be so loved or sad tht i had to leave.

it was fun meeting the guys at college today, but don't know if i'll be able to make it to the food festival tonight. lot's of work at the office as the deadline for the project is nearing, 3 more days to go. don't want to have them coming over on Sunday but will try my best. and there is something more i'll like to tell abt her but if i do guys will know who she is and tht she doesn't want. at least not right now. so sorry to any1 reading this blog.

cheers

Party Party Party

too tired yesterday, slept for nearly 12 hrs, reason being a gr8 party yesterday evening. i really enjoyed a fun day out with the guys n gals. they r a fun bunch and i realy realy miss being with them...

working with amit, fighting with shweta, remarks and cuteness of shailee, nishit n alisha, pavan, sitting in didi's pasal with smriti, rajeee, prakriti always waiting for indira, n all those wonderful moments with naresh, sujeet and the rest of the gang.

well, well, well too much missing here, it's not as if i am dying tomorrow so still we can have fun, meet outside at times or enjoy a movie together sometime.

there is a lot of thing to be thankfull for, so i should embrace the situation and make the most of it.

the most difficult part would be now tht i won't have enough changes to meet her. first time i fall in love and this happens, but as i said earlier i'll make the best of this bad situation. let's c, i'll call her up and make a date with her for maybe this weekend. wish be luck guys.

bye for now, rest as things go on cause now i have to get back to work cause i am not getting paid to write my blog

The final act

the so called human pulled the final act today by not allowing us to our own fairwell party. wht does the SOB think he is. just because he had a big event planned he freeking can play volleyball with our carrers....

well i'll tell the whole story some other time...but keep reading cause things r going to get interesting now...he has started the war and now we r going to finish it....

now the time has come for him to go through purgatory...and believe me it's not going to fun for him....

g'nite every1...i am so angry tht i cannot even think straight to write anything