11 PM and i feel lonely amongst the world population of 6 billion people. have not been able to sleep and have been tossing and turnig for over 2 hrs so finally decided to come online and spend some time on the net.
life for a 20 yr old can be such a mess...people take me for a Machine with no heart or soul...i am tired of working all the time. "Hither2forlorn" meaning neglected uptill now and i feel the same as i sit to write this blog. neglected by frnds, foes and family alike. it sucks to be lonely without any1 to think abt u.
before i turned on my computer i had so much in mind tht i wanted to write but now i just don't have the words to describe how i feel. maybe i'll go back 2 sleep or at least try to sleep
hey did i say abt meeting a old frnd online today. she was in kathmandu 4 two months but she couldn;t get thorugh my phone and talk to me. have u heard such bullshit before. i mean if once she could call at 1 aM and ask me 2 come online cause she was feeling lonely and wanted to chat with some1, couldn't she make a small effort to contact me when she was here 4 two months, u know if phone didn't work then there was always mail. every1 knows i check my mails more then once a day and if she didn't want 2 meet me y did she tell me tht she was here in the first place and couldn't meet me. ignorance is the best medicine for a lonely man. if i had not known tht she was here i would be fine but knowing tht she was here but didn't meet me hurts more than anything. how can i trust her anymore.
anywz things had happy turn 2. i think i am finally in love with a girl and she likes me 2. we r meeting tomorrow during her break time. don't know wht i am supposed to talk abt with her though. i just completed my undergrad and she has just started hers, we have absolutely nothing in common. but i sincerly hope this works cause i can't take being lonely anymore.
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
Monday, September 27, 2004
Am I Safe?
When a group of people burn a motorcycle in front of the HMG's Office Complex with the Armed Police and Army men as onlookers, one starts to wonder abt the level of security tht the government claims is there for a country which is already in high alert and the army deployed to fight a civil war.
More then 2 billion rs. was destroyed in the capital alone with the security as a helpless onlooker. 300 companies were burnt down and still no one could do anything....and then the government comes out to assure me of the level of security tht i have....bullshit....
they r no more then fucked up people who r no humans but assholes who need to be shoved under the himalays alive
More then 2 billion rs. was destroyed in the capital alone with the security as a helpless onlooker. 300 companies were burnt down and still no one could do anything....and then the government comes out to assure me of the level of security tht i have....bullshit....
they r no more then fucked up people who r no humans but assholes who need to be shoved under the himalays alive
Thursday, September 23, 2004
Who should be the President
Seems this question is hogging a lot of peoples attention and time....and then I read a review in one of the papers tht it should be decided by the world and not the US people as who should be the person interfering with the peoples lives....
everyone agrees tht Saddam Hussian was a treat to the world peace, but one thing i couldn;t understand is how can a person who leaves in isolation in a remort part of the world be any treat to US security when bin laden has been able to cause more damage to the world then Saddam ever did and there is no work being done to catch him.....
y does bush/blair take people to be so stupid and y r people so stupid not to understand tht....if they r so worried then y don;t they send there family members to Iraq to fight against terrorism instead of taking innocent peoples lives for the cause they believe in....if u believe in something u should take the responsibilty of sorting it out and not risk innocent peoples lives to prove ur point...
these two assholes have no work but to interfere with other poeples lives and then not take the responsibility of their security....they r the real mass murderes and should be executed before any other person is....
everyone agrees tht Saddam Hussian was a treat to the world peace, but one thing i couldn;t understand is how can a person who leaves in isolation in a remort part of the world be any treat to US security when bin laden has been able to cause more damage to the world then Saddam ever did and there is no work being done to catch him.....
y does bush/blair take people to be so stupid and y r people so stupid not to understand tht....if they r so worried then y don;t they send there family members to Iraq to fight against terrorism instead of taking innocent peoples lives for the cause they believe in....if u believe in something u should take the responsibilty of sorting it out and not risk innocent peoples lives to prove ur point...
these two assholes have no work but to interfere with other poeples lives and then not take the responsibility of their security....they r the real mass murderes and should be executed before any other person is....
Sunday, September 19, 2004
Finally
Phew...finally the convocation is over and i am a free man...it feels gr8 to be out of college & into the world....may god be with all the classmates and they have a gr8 future ahead of them...
well partied into the night...was up till 4 in the morning and had to sleep on the floor since there was no bed in the frnds apartments...it sucked....couldn't get any sleep......
missed the convocation picture taken at college but will upload a pic of me and my frnds during our convocating in a moment....
well partied into the night...was up till 4 in the morning and had to sleep on the floor since there was no bed in the frnds apartments...it sucked....couldn't get any sleep......
missed the convocation picture taken at college but will upload a pic of me and my frnds during our convocating in a moment....
Thursday, September 16, 2004
Busy Day Today
Hi all, it has been a busy day today with a number of things happening. Well started the day with swimming for a hour and half.
Finally started the implementation of Scrum on a dummy project "Public Transport Account Management System" using VersionOne. It's a pretty cool tool to manage a Scrum Project, do try it out.
the guys are really enthusiactic in implementing it and being the Scrum Master is really cool
Finally started the implementation of Scrum on a dummy project "Public Transport Account Management System" using VersionOne. It's a pretty cool tool to manage a Scrum Project, do try it out.
the guys are really enthusiactic in implementing it and being the Scrum Master is really cool
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
War or Peace: Are we asking the Right person for it?
I was at this temple with my family and we had a big religious activity going on. Down walks a lady, a tourist and decides to camp next to us and follow our ceremony closely. After some time my family go to the main temple and I am left alone to guard all the stuff (this isn’t the good old days anymore), this lady walks up to me and inquires about the religious ceremony and I explain it to her to the best of my knowledge (which I need not tell you is not much). In the end she says she wishes peace for everyone and just asked the sleeping Vishnu for the same.
This last sentence of her had me thinking. War or Peace: Are we really asking the right person for it? Take a look at the history of our religion and we find quite a few examples were god has used war to justify peace. But is the world today so perfect that we can justify peace with war? America under the leadership of G. W. Bush tried to do the same but look at the world after 9/11. So back to the same question, are we asking the right person for peace?
There was this small story which got around a lot as forwarded mail (most of them are usually junk, but then Lotus also grows in mud) where true meaning of peace was given as “peace does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble, or hard work. Peace means to be in the midst of all those things and still be calm in your heart.”
So where is peace after all? And I came to this conclusion that peace is in our hearts, amongst the one we love and share our life with. Peace like war is our choice. If we are in war with our own self, we’ll be in war with the world. God didn’t give us war, it can’t give us peace. All it can give us is the strength to be oneself and believe in it and help others do it. Like god cannot change the course of a river either for good or bad, it cannot dictate war or peace in our lives.
If god can’t then can Religion give us peace? Each religion talks of peace in life and ways to achieve. But still it can’t give us peace. all it can do is show us the path but we have to walk that path, religion will not do it for us. Like god religion didn’t give us war. All it gave us was the path to god.
Then what can give us peace? Ever heard of hope and faith? These are the two things that can give us peace. Man does not live on bread. He lives on hope. Hope of a better tomorrow, hope of a happier future and this hope is based on the faith in oneself, ones fellow being and once religion and culture.
"Peace comes within the souls of men, when they realize their oneness with the Universe, when they realize it is really everywhere ... It is within each one of us."
This last sentence of her had me thinking. War or Peace: Are we really asking the right person for it? Take a look at the history of our religion and we find quite a few examples were god has used war to justify peace. But is the world today so perfect that we can justify peace with war? America under the leadership of G. W. Bush tried to do the same but look at the world after 9/11. So back to the same question, are we asking the right person for peace?
There was this small story which got around a lot as forwarded mail (most of them are usually junk, but then Lotus also grows in mud) where true meaning of peace was given as “peace does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble, or hard work. Peace means to be in the midst of all those things and still be calm in your heart.”
So where is peace after all? And I came to this conclusion that peace is in our hearts, amongst the one we love and share our life with. Peace like war is our choice. If we are in war with our own self, we’ll be in war with the world. God didn’t give us war, it can’t give us peace. All it can give us is the strength to be oneself and believe in it and help others do it. Like god cannot change the course of a river either for good or bad, it cannot dictate war or peace in our lives.
If god can’t then can Religion give us peace? Each religion talks of peace in life and ways to achieve. But still it can’t give us peace. all it can do is show us the path but we have to walk that path, religion will not do it for us. Like god religion didn’t give us war. All it gave us was the path to god.
Then what can give us peace? Ever heard of hope and faith? These are the two things that can give us peace. Man does not live on bread. He lives on hope. Hope of a better tomorrow, hope of a happier future and this hope is based on the faith in oneself, ones fellow being and once religion and culture.
"Peace comes within the souls of men, when they realize their oneness with the Universe, when they realize it is really everywhere ... It is within each one of us."
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