Mentorship

Sunday, October 09, 2005

Love & Life

My Sister just gave birth to a baby boy. So I thought I would take this opportunity and talk about life. Life as it happens. I have written a lot about both love & life but never touched this aspect of it ever. Simple reason I am a guy. What do I know about it? Not much. Anywz here are a few simple thoughts about it.

There are two kinds of pain that has been discribed as the most unbrearable. One is some kind of illness I forgot the name of and second one is delivering a baby. A birth of a new life. Amazing. One pain no one wants to go thorugh even once. And the other you would want to go over and over.

One place you will see unconditional love. Love at it's purest form is right there. The nine month that a mother spends with her baby inside her body. It is her life, her soul. A birth of a new life.

In a relationship it's always about me and us: my life, my happiness, my wish, our life, our happiness. But throw a baby in the mix and everything changes. It's no longer me or us. It's always the baby. We move on to the higher life form.

The eyes that always saw dreams for itself, suddenly sees dreams for it's child. The hand that always extended to protect itself extends to protect that tiny life form. Decades of love for oneself becomes so insignificant for the love of a few years.

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Reflections

Lost in thought for a long time. Thinking what is there that I can write about. Just cannot come up with anything. The mind is going blank. Am getting lost in my own world. A place I don't want to come back from. But I have to. There are just so many things going on around. Have to keep up with them.

Lots of people in the past couple of months have walked in and walked out. Some I thought would stick around, but didn't. Some who thought were there just for the flicker have stuck around. Some who were just another person, weren't and some who weren't just another person turned out to be. A building is what seperates her and she couldn't be the person I wanted her to be. A room what seperates him and I couldn't be the person he wanted to be and a ocean seperates us and I couldn't be the person she wanted me to be.

Life is strange and it just doesn't ceases to surprise me even today. Don't take anything for granted is all I can say.

A mind is a terrible thing to waste. I havn't felt so handicapped ever before. I am out of words. Don't know what to talk about. Just go rambling on and on.

Confused. Lost the thought process. Been the story of my life for last few weeks. Havn't been able to concentrate on something for more then a few seconds. Then just lose the chain of thoughts that was going on.

My style is based on the chain of thoughts process. One thing leads to another and that to another and so on. But right now I am hardly capable of putting together an intelligent sentence forget about a story.

So till I don't become my ownself again may be the writings will be more infrequent.