Trust

Seriously, this is crazy. I am not being able to write anything that I want. This has never happened before. I always have something to talk and say about.

Trust is really important and any moron will tell you that and all of them say so too. But I was talking to this person on the phone the other day and she made a strange point which got me thinking. What does trust mean and how much are we willing to bet on it. I have said this before, in life all I want from my girl is that I can trust her and have a five minute conversation with her. And I never really understood why I thought that until yesterday. If you can trust someone, you automatically close your mind from all possibility of deceit and that means one less person to worry about in your life. And if you have to worry about trusting the person you are spending your life with, that is not a pretty thing. Believe me it is not.

You are walking down a street and you stop to ask for directions. What happens? Somebody gives you one. If you reach your destination you forget about the person but if you do not make it you start cursing the person. You tell ten of your other friends what a jerk that person was. You don’t forget the person for a long time. See how easy it is to just trust someone and not worry about it then not trust someone and then think about it for the rest of your life. Relationships are like these two people giving directions to the destination of your life. It is so very important to be able to trust the person so that we can listen to them.

Whenever we make contact with a new person, we start with some kind of trust. Now it’s up to the two people involved either to confirm the trust or to break it. But it’s all in our hands to do it. Life is difficult and people around us can either make it easier or difficult for us. But let me take a minute and say something here. To save the trust one person, you should be careful not to break the trust of someone else. Recently someone did that to me and it was not pretty. Life is full of surprises and you don’t want to loose one friend to make another one. Each one in your life are special and they should remain the same. Don’t ever compromise the trust of one friend to gain the trust of the other. It is not worth it. No one likes it. You won’t like it either if that happens to you.

Well I so wanted to tell this story that I lost the chain of my thought.

But this summer has been simply amazing. I met so many people. Goodbyes are always so difficult.

Oh yeah I got it. Trust right. It’s so random. I met this random girl, really random, out of the blue and we started talking, within an hour we were talking about our life, about my life, about her life. I looked into her eyes and all I wanted to do was trust her. It was so easy. I just wish it would/could mean more ………

It’s so easy to get caught up with major things in life that we forget that there are other things that matter. Trying to plan for a life time they forget to plan for the moment. Someone once told me, “Smile when you answer the phone, the person across can hear your smile.” And I believe that.

People get caught up in their career, in their relationships, in so many things that they stop paying attention to smaller things. I have an angel I talk to, she is 5 years old and whenever I call her up, she brightens up my day. Why is that, cause she is innocent. So innocent that I know whatever I tell her, she is not going to be biased. I am tired of biased opinion from people. I talk to a friend and he will tell me things that I want to hear cause he is my friend. But this angel, she tells me what she things, no strings attached. Aren’t we just complicating our lives with all the things that we do. With more people that become part of our life, the more complicated it becomes, and then it is no longer about me and my life, it’s about so many other things.

Isn’t it simple when it’s just about me. I mind sound obnoxious but look at the life of a 2 year old. He only cares about himself, it’s always about him, if he is hungry, he will cry, if he is lonely he will cry, if he wants to play he will cry. He doesn’t care how much difficult it is for you or me, for him it’s simple, “I am uncomfortable here, do something to make me happy”. There you go, no strings attached.

I want people around me I can trust and who in turn can trust me. Oh yeah that reminds me about this conversation I had with a friend about trust and friendship. According to her she would never ever talk to a person.

The Velvet Lounge

Great works of art are synchronized and complete. Look at a piece of painting, if it is great it will be complete. Synchronized with itself and with the surrounding.

I m sitting here at the velvet lounge, chicago, home of jazz, listening to music. Some of the best thing ever. What makes it truely amazing is the setting and the music. It's insane. So full of life so complete. Everything makes sense. Everything fits together. The people, the music, the surrounding and the friends. And that my friend is music. That my friend is art. Truely great art, if your soul can associate with it. If the thing completes your soul that is truely a great art and the greatest form of life.

Eye for detail and the passion for perfection. That's what seperates the mediocre from the great. Art and music is filled with madness. Madness of self, madness of thought. To see pattern in chaos, to see life in death, to see design in free space.

When the forces of nature combines with mind, soul and body what results is beautiful. What results is a work of art.

Sometimes a life time is not enough

A restaurant, five of us, three of them I had just met, two hours and I know more about them than I do about most of the people I have known for a life time. The fourth person I had known for ages but still he surpised me with a few things about him which I had not known before. I would like to dedicate this blog to one special person from that group for it was her inspiration that I am writing this blog.

Isn't that the story of life. People walk in and walk out of it but some linger on like a puff of smoke then disappear and some stay on forever. And everyone of those relationships are important, have meaning in your life for their own special reasons. But what caught my fancy was how well do we know all those people that we claim to know. Converstation is a strange thing. As well as you can use it to convey yourself, you can use it to hide yourself too. You read in paper of crimes being committed by people who were thought to be least likely to have done it by the people close to them. That says a lot. No matter how well people claim to know us, there will always be some part of us which is private. We don't share it, we don't let people see it.

Friendship is a strange thing. Family we are born into, friends are of our own choice. Sometimes they are formed at the first meeting, sometimes they take a life time and somethings a strange happening or a awkward situation. I have never been able to fathom why. There are two most common traits I have seen. One there is something common to base the friendship on and second there is something that the other person has that I need. You might be aware of both or you might not be but generally there is always things that you talk about that are common punctuated by exchange. Of love, effection, things, thoughts, knowledge or a million other things. But there is always a give and take going on and that keeps our interest in the other person intact. If the other person could not give us anything we loose interest in that person and that's the start of a failed friendship.

Friendship is like love, when you find the right one, it can last a life time.