Mentorship

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

The Princess of my Dream

Out there somewhere is the Princess of my dreams. She is waiting for me and I am waiting for her. Some one once explained love to me as a soul divided into two half. One part of the soul is in me and the other part is in her. For the soul to be complete I have to meet this Princess of my dreams. So how will I know that I have met her. My soul will feel complete. I will no longer be incomplete. The yin will have met the yang.

She is everything that I am not. She is my best friend and she is my worst enemy. She is closest to my heart and she is the farthest from it. She brings the best out of me and she brings the worst out of me. She is my reality and she is my fantasy. In my heart she is the best that can be.

She comes in my dreams every night. She walks towards me step by step. She smiles, the winds carry the smile to me and as I reach out to touch her. I can feel her feelings. The day breaks and I awake. I can live by this memory for ever. It will be in my heart for a day, week, month and years. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel but not quite reach it. I can feel that hair on my face but not quite touch it. Her eyes tease me but I just can’t bring myself to laugh.

Oh wind, carry my love to her. Star, pass my wishes. Moon take the warmth of the world to her so that she never feels alone and the sun give her the sunshine and make her life colorful.

The Alchemist: Paulo Coelho

“When a person really desires something all the universe conspires to help the person to realize his dream” said the alchemist…

Saturday, August 27, 2005

Who can hurt us most?

Ever wonder who can hurt us the most?? I have. I got different answers everytime I asked myself this question. Reason, cause I asked this question to myself only when I got hurt. And then the person who just hurt me was on the top of the list. My parents, my friends, my family, my girlfriend u name it everyone has sometime or other, for some reason or other has been in the list.

Then one day I did some self searching. What was common whenever I got hurt. The common factor was tht the people who could hurt me was not someone off the street. It was always someone who I trusted, who i thought was on my corner, ppl i cared for. What does this mean. Why is it tht the we love the most and those who can hurt us the most.

But there was something missing in this whole puzzle. I was missing something or someone. Well just hit me. I was missing me. It was me getting hurt everytime. So something must be wrong with me.

The only person who can hurt me is me. I can decide for myself whether I want to be hurt. It's all about me. So basically if you don't want ppl to hurt you. you have to stop hurting yourself first.

We can only hurt ourself the most. Have faith in yourself and your actions and no one can hurt you. I have let many people hurt me and I still let them do. It's not easy, when someone matters to you very much, that person virtually has the key to your mood. Save yourself.

That does not mean you don't get close to ppl. But it means that you don't give them the key to your mood. Let them not run your life. Don't let them decide when you are happy, don't let them decide when you should be sad. Don't let them hurt you and make sure you don't hurt anyone.

Whenever you feel like hurting someone, remeber the time you got hurt. It was not preety and the person will not find it preety either.

Friday, August 19, 2005

Time OR Fashion

Einstein, Plato, Gallelio, Soccrates, Arsitotle. What's common amongst them. They were all said to be ahead of their time.

They thought and talked of stuffs ppl didn't understand. So they were said to be ahead of their time. But were they truely ahead of their time????

When you wear something that is not normally worn by people you are said to be ahead of your fashion not time. So why do people who think differently be said to be ahead their time. Why not that they are also ahead of fashion?

Personally I feel they are ahead of their fashion. Why?? Cause time is relative. If you say someone is ahead of their time? What time are you talking abt??

I feel these people were ahead of their fashion not their time. They talked about something new, something exciting, something great, something good, somthing bad. But they bring new fashion of thought with them. They do not bring new time. The time is there, it always will be.

Lonely, Shallow, Superficial

Thousands of miles away from home, alone in a new world. Friends, Family, Home, Life all left behind for something new and different and exciting. I am not alone. There were thousands before me and there are thousands with me and there will be thousands after me. Nothing will be the same again for anyone of them.

Everyone is in the same situation. Everyone is trying to live a life which does not belong to them. But we all are critical. Suddenly I am surrounded by new people. Swept off my feet by the names and faces. But in this crowd I again feel Lonely, Shallow and Superficial.

Why do we do this to ourself. Why don't we take people at their face value. Why do we have to mistrust every individual that crosses our path. Why can't people except me for who I am.

Life is wonderful. But it is short too. Our life is critical of us. We should not always waste time trying to figure out the outside of the person but to know him from inside. Ask questions that are relevent to know the soul, not the person.

Do I belive in love at first sight. Yes I do. Why? Cause I have seen it. Cause I have felt it. A relationship needs time to develop but should not take time to start. I believe in that first eye contact. It should be enough to tell you who your friends are. The rest is all superficial.

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

My Thoughts

"The world has never been without its Creator at any point of time and there is no independent creator of the world. It's always in Principle"

I have no idea who said it or what it means. But this is something a friend told me over a chit chat and wanted to know my views about. I have absolutely no idea what the sentence means or what the author of the sentence is trying to say.

But I do have a recollection of reading in a book "When bad things happen to Good People" by Harold S. Kushner, something about sorting and ordering out of a random and chaotic world.

Not everything in that happens makes sense. Why a mad man goes on a shooting frenzy makes sense. But why the people who happen to be there, actually happen to be there does not. A kid starts shooting at his peers in school makes sense. He might not have been able to handle peer pressure and wanted to show them that he was strong. But why Dick who always came late, came ontime on that day and got shot and Larry who had never been sick in his life happened to be left home with a cold. This random choosing of incedents does not make sense.

So may be the world is moving from a chaos to order. "If a system left undisturbed long enough will always approach equilibrium." May be that's what the sentence means. The world has never been with it's creator. The creator is always there. But then the creator has left things undisturbed so that things will reach to an equilibrium. There will be order after chaos. Randomness will start making sense.

In principle the creator is playing its part. By not disturbing the chaos, it's helping it achieve equilibirum.

It's just a simple thought. Hope this makes sense to the certain someone. I would definitly love to hear the views of other people on this.

Take Care

Sunday, August 14, 2005

A long time in comming

Seems I have lost the zeal to write or just forgotten that I ever wrote. But I am making an effort to come back into i. So help me here folks.

I am finally here. Travelled miles over 22 hrs of flight time, but am finally here in Pittsburgh. A wonderful city with wonderful people. People have been generally friendly around here and I really appreciate it.

Nothing can be more difficult then to start off with a new life. You are at a new place, don't know anyone and have been left in a compeletely alien culture. Everything around you is new, everyone around you is new. Generally when I travell I tend to make small talk with people who sit beside me. But this time around I travelled alone. Alone, no freinds, no one I know into a new life in a new city.

But so far so good. Things have been easier then expected. Am already into a nice little rythemic schedule and things don't feel that much of a different from home. Anywaz things are moving now. Got an orientation in a few days time. A new IBM laptop. But some how I liked the old one better. It had a certain homely feeling to it. But this one is also good enough.

Got a by-cycle to travel to places. Much easier then the buses or the cars. Fast, efficient and cheap. Have travelled less then 5 miles on it but already have my hands covered in grease. Go figure.

Well well well, it seems I am off ranting away aimlessly not knowing what I am saying. Will go now and come back with some new stuffs.

Been reading this Alcemist again from Poelo Cohelo or whatever his name is. Got some pretty interesting stuffs on it. Can't imagine it has already been 4 yrs since I last read it and the whole meaing has changed in the duration. What the book meant 4 yrs back is totally different then what it means today. I believe we should re-read everything that we have ever read every 4-5 yrs. Help us know the change in prespective and realise the direction of the life that we have.

Take Care, Miss You All.