Anecdotes of the First Yr at KCM

Here are some anecdotes from the first year at KCM.

• Well no memoir of mine would be complete without the mention of the time when I sold my entire first semester notes for twenty five hundred. Still can’t get over the fact.
• Oh yeh n tht time after the finals of the first semester our class was really pumped up abt complaining, I think someone did write a letter to the Dean. After all we had heard abt KU, we were really disappointed with the level of question in the end semester and actually complained abt exams being too easy. Am so glad they didn’t listen to us or else we would be dead by now. Still makes me laugh just thinking abt it, I mean how stupid can one get of all the thing in the world to complain abt.
  
• Well since we r in the topic many people of tht era would remember the crooked finger. Yeh tht of CP sir and his eccentric ways. Tht open book exam he gave us really infuriated the BBA guys and then walking out of an exam taken by the great Bishnu Sir himself. As far as my memory serves me right, we were the only batch to get away after staging a walkout on Bishnu Sir’s exam. I mean the exam was taken by Bishnu and checked by him, I got one of the highest marks in class. The highest was 10/100. the lowest u guessed it 0/100.

Finally It's here

Long time. Well haven’t written much lately. It’s not that I don’t have the zeal to write or cause of the lack of the material. It’s just that haven’t had tht much of a time n whatever I had went into being lazy or reading some books.

This time around I have decided to write abt my past for a change. Got this gr8 idea from one of the junior girl. She wanted to write my biography so just making her job easier by starting it off with some material for her.

This one would be about my life at KCM so tht’s the last 4 yrs in the making. To be frank I had never heard abt KCM. My sister got the form for me along with hers and when ppl told me abt it, I didn’t have any hopes of getting into it. Well my frnds would know why. I am definitely not the studious kind. So long, I had Bishnu, CP and Binay during the interview and the GD was the real charm with me and Riyaz fighting it over for the top honors. Life at KCM started off as any normal thing, a little anxious, a little fear at the Orientation. Two days of grueling orientation a couple of new friends and into the college. I remember our orientation fell on my birthday and believe me Bishnu Sir first thing in the morning is not the best present one can get if you know what I mean.

Early morning classes, after class breaks 4 u know wht. Me, Aashish and Brajesh yeh brajesh, when he first joined he was a good friend and then you know what he did stuck us with a over hundred bill for all his cold drinks and goes off to sit with the girls. I mean he drops us like hot potatoes for girls. There was this small incident I remember, Kailash’s Sir had the second class of the day and some of we guys had gone out after the first class and were a little late and guess what he locked the room from inside. It was a great party at Amit’s that day. Oh how I miss those times. Amit’s room cramming for exams. Life went on and so did the semesters, a few hiccups along the way until it was time to move to the new building. Wow it’s difficult writing a memoir. The rest will come in time. Am feeling really sleepy. Next I’ll be writing about meeting Pavan and the wonderful friendship thereafter.

Havn't updated for a long time

well well it's been long tht i havn't updated my blog....been busy with work and stuff...i know tht's no excuse to not write...casue one keeps a blog because it helps busy people keep their thought in check. anywz

the last week has been a real hectic one. been working on 4 simultaneous project. havn't had time to take a break. well guess what. thursday i was busy working (Actually was stuck with a problem for over an hour) and the office boy comes with a red rose and a card and gives it to me. i was in a state of shock for a sec cause if u know me u would know tht when in a problem i have no idea wht goes around. anywz by the time i was back everyone in office had gone oohhhhhh!! u know how people go. well there she was outside the office waiting for me. it came as quite a shock. i didn't know y she had come cause just in the morning i had talked with her on the phone and also we had sort of broken up. or at least i had told her my intension of breaking up. then she told me she doesn't want to break up. and will not let it happen.

strange! even i thought so. people can't bear me for a continous 5 min and here she was after 3 months and still wanting to bear me more. I don't know. This is not working out for me and i can't seem to explain it to her. All the love thing is fine but no body can force it to work. We can try and believe me god I tried. I still do love her but still it does not work out for me. I feel I am in chains. I guess I am made to be a free machine working all the time. As long as I am doing something I am fine but as soon as I have to sit and do nothing it seems a total waste of time and I start getting irritated. Even I need a break once in a while but tht break has to be on my terms.
Life is complicated as it is without all this love thing making it complicated still.

All my life I wanted to truly fall in love and when I did it just doesn't seem right. Ekta says maybe it's not love but just an infatuation. Well there could be it's possibilities too. Whatever it is I am not ready yet for it. I still need more time with me and my work and my career. Right now that's the only thing I want to be thinking about. But I still have no idea how can I get it accross her. She just doen't seem to understand. Well will forcing it make it work. I don't know. She wants to try that. I am at my wits end. You try.

Life has been good over the couple of weeks besides this one matter.

Hello World, Lng Time

It's been long since i last made a real posting. had been a lttl busy and lazy too. somehow lost tht spark of writing. after all i am not a regular writer or anything. even writing this is taking a lot out of me. just don't know wht to write. life is normal as normal can be. been working on some intersting projects in the past couple of weeks ranging from a Lottery System to a new project for an funding company. am at office right now wating for a meeting to happen so thought will write someting.

hey forgot abt it. one of my very close frnds is back in Ktm. it's gr8 news. a very interesting story behind it. we both studied at SSI. not together or anything. hardly new her. just met her a few times and a lttl chit chat. had her added in my yahoo. when she left ktm for her course we used to chat. and over the yrs chatting we became preety good frnds. now she is very close.

strng thing is she 2 is a few yrs senior to me. n she pointed out the fact to me. all my close frnds in the recent past have been older then me and my gf is way younger then me. does tht mean anything. either i don't get along with my age people. tht is not so cause i got many gr8 frnds from my own age group. i guess it means i am a very agile person (hahahahaha)

anywz i guess this is it for now...came across this gr8 site today. www.bored.com should try it when bored.

Wonderful Site

http://www.sorryeverybody.com/

Nothing to write

So many things have happened in the past week but i am in a sort of writers block right now. Just don't know where to begin from and how to begin. So pls bear with me untill i get back to my writing ways. hey got my TOEFL score --> 273. it's pretty good hai

In the shoes of a Nepalese Undergraduate: An American Dream

Venue: A Tea/Coffee Shop

As I enter the shop I find my friend already waiting for me. We make our order and sit to chat. Both of us are the recent addition to the already exploding road/house runners of the new generation. We are the torch bearers of tomorrow’s Nepal. Didn’t get the meaning, well we have both just completed our undergraduate degree.

As we are chatting in come a group of guys in some hot discussion. We stop our chat to listen to this group. After a couple of rounds of talk we realize that these people are no different than us. And what are they talking about, one of the guy is looking for a job, while the others are trying for studies abroad. These guys are talking about the same thing what (no second guess needed here) we were just talking about.

Scenario 1:

Knock, knock.
Who’s there?
A fresh Undergraduate
A fresh Undergraduate who?
A fresh undergraduate looking for a job
Looking for a job who?
Any kind of job even if it is teaching for one year then apply for studies abroad

Scenario 2:

Knock, knock.
Who’s there?
A fresh Undergraduate
A fresh Undergraduate who?
A fresh undergraduate looking to go abroad
Looking to go abroad who?
For my Graduation, does not matter which field

Do you see a pattern here or am I crazy? Scores of youth graduate from tens of colleges with different expertise but with a single dream, a dream which is not a Nepalese dream, but an American dream. A dream which takes them to America for studies and then if fortunate enough, settlement.

Exit this group of youths and another take there place and the same talk all over again. Is this the Nepal our older generation is leaving for us? I was listening to the news the other day about the appointment of new Prime Minister in Singapore and the major challenge his government will be facing in the coming days is from lack of younger generation to take over the country since people there have just stopped having children anymore. I am not afraid for these countries since they can import man power from other countries, I am afraid for those countries who are exporting these man power (popularly known as Brain Drain).

There are two things which parents teach there children at home namely, moral values and family culture and these are reinstated during the school days. To this list is added another field which has got more emphasis over the other and that is study/settlement abroad techniques. There are more and I mean more counseling for study abroad then there is for job placement. There are more companies which train people for abroad study then there are placement agencies, in fact I believe (though I have no statistics to prove it) there are more agencies which provides you jobs abroad then they do in Nepal itself. Look at any newspaper during the admission season (namely June, July, and August) and you’ll find more Study abroad ads then college’s ad then job vacancy ads.

Exit the second group and since it was getting really late into the night, me and my friend also paid our bills and bid goodbye promising to meet the next day to go to the USEF (United States Education Foundation in Nepal for those who didn’t already know about it) to get all the details on applying for a college in the States and follow a Nepalese Graduates American Dream.

Love Story : A Dream beginning

'No, I was the one who wanted to die.'
She turned back to the piano. In the last days of her life, she had finally realised her grand dream: to play with heart and soul, for as long as she wanted and whenever the mood took her. It didn't matter to her that her only audience was a young schizophrenic; he seemed to understand the music, and that was what mattered.

The above part is not the part of the love story, it's just a section of a book i am currently reading "veronika Decides to Die" from Paulo Coelho. I liked the part a lot and wanted to share it with u guys. Be positive and do whatever ur heart desires or else...

Have u ever had a day when everything went perfect well near to perfect, i missed a small fire place. Just before Dusk, Light Rain and wind, warm enough to sit outside cold enough for her to smug upto to me //dream moment// if there was any. silence speaking a thousand words. an hour passed with the blink of the eye but the moment has been captured. this 1 moment will never end in my heart or in my eyes.

The rest as they say is history. keep in touch

I am tired

She is angry with me. I don't know wht to do. I luv her too much to think even think abt gettn angry with her.

Party today at office hope 2 enjoy it.

I wrote 2 a lng lost frnd yesterday and got her reply. she was real glad to get a mail from me. we had this chat fling going on for a while. i had met her in yahoo chat around 5 yrs ago and we exchanged mails for more then 2 yrs, mostly love letters but then lost contact over the last couple of yrs. it was really wonderful. feels like a new beginnning since most of the people i write 2 hardly any1 ever replies.

hey did i tell u Girish sir is finally married, he had sent an invitation but couldn't attend cause the marriage was in Chennai, wish him a gr8 and happy marriage life. Suman is back in SSI after her disappearence for over a yr. she is the same old joly person even after her marriage, but these days i have seen her with this foreign lady i don't know who

there was a fire at the factory yesterday, dad incurred a huge loss around 50 grands. but the insurance should cover it up. and the Scrum Master Certification for october end got cancelled. don't know when will it happen. i so badly wanted to attend it. but in a way it's a good thing cause i couldn't get the nerve to ask dad for money to attend it after the loss of yesterday. hope it happens soon though.

well as u c things have been happening pretty much fast in the last couple of days. let's just c where it leeds to ......

But I love her 2 much 2 loose her right now, so i am prepared to do anything to make this work

Faith

Faith, a very strange word. You can hear it all over the world but still people have absolutely no idea of what it means or at least tht's wht i believe. If something in life goes wrong we blame God. We question our Faith and the justice of God. But then how much is God involved in our day to day life. Does God pull strings as to who get's what and who does not. Does god have a big book where the events of our life are recorded and happiness & grief distributed as per the book which god consults every morning and says ok today this person is going to get a million dollors in a lottery and the other person is going to have his/her leg broken.

Or god simply decides based on if u worshiped him or not or if you made a mistake in some ritual. For example say you were supposed to fast for 24 hrs but u fasted for only 23 hrs 59 min so god will punish you.

Or god is an ever loving, forgiving person who is there to help us live our life giving us strength. He does not control nature and does not interfere with it. He does not distinguish between a thief or saint but lets nature take its own course.

I believe in a God that is not bias but loves all his beings no matter what. Also I believe in a God who is there to give me strength in my darkest moment, a God who makes me feel love and loved. You know wht's the greatest gift you can give someone. We all know it's not money or for that matter something tht person dreamt of having. Strangly enough it's not friendship or love. You can't give ur frndship, effection or love to someone if they will not take it. The greatest gift to anyone is the "feeling of being loved and wanted" is what you can give. If somebody makes me feel that loved and that my existence on earth is not a waste then that's the greatest gift that anyone can give me. It's the most valuable gift cause you can live a lifetime only on the power of this gift. If you don't have this gift from your fellow people then life becomes a waste and you start questioning your existence and those are the people who commit suicide.

Another Day and Another Waste

Talked with Bishnu Sir today, came to the conclusion tht nothing can be done. We are as helpless as anyone working with Microsoft Products. There is no 1 to save u from the pain, agony. it's like a toothache tht just won't go away no matter wht u may try. Like there is no cure to cold but to hope tht one day u will wake up and it will be gone, there is no cure to bishnu sir at KCM then to hope tht one day u will wake up and he will be gone.

anywaz on a happier note i met her again yesterday. had lunch with her. she didn't want 2 let me come back. took me over half an hour to convince and then also she did not let me go easily. i didn't know wht to feel then, happy to be so loved or sad tht i had to leave.

it was fun meeting the guys at college today, but don't know if i'll be able to make it to the food festival tonight. lot's of work at the office as the deadline for the project is nearing, 3 more days to go. don't want to have them coming over on Sunday but will try my best. and there is something more i'll like to tell abt her but if i do guys will know who she is and tht she doesn't want. at least not right now. so sorry to any1 reading this blog.

cheers

Party Party Party

too tired yesterday, slept for nearly 12 hrs, reason being a gr8 party yesterday evening. i really enjoyed a fun day out with the guys n gals. they r a fun bunch and i realy realy miss being with them...

working with amit, fighting with shweta, remarks and cuteness of shailee, nishit n alisha, pavan, sitting in didi's pasal with smriti, rajeee, prakriti always waiting for indira, n all those wonderful moments with naresh, sujeet and the rest of the gang.

well, well, well too much missing here, it's not as if i am dying tomorrow so still we can have fun, meet outside at times or enjoy a movie together sometime.

there is a lot of thing to be thankfull for, so i should embrace the situation and make the most of it.

the most difficult part would be now tht i won't have enough changes to meet her. first time i fall in love and this happens, but as i said earlier i'll make the best of this bad situation. let's c, i'll call her up and make a date with her for maybe this weekend. wish be luck guys.

bye for now, rest as things go on cause now i have to get back to work cause i am not getting paid to write my blog

The final act

the so called human pulled the final act today by not allowing us to our own fairwell party. wht does the SOB think he is. just because he had a big event planned he freeking can play volleyball with our carrers....

well i'll tell the whole story some other time...but keep reading cause things r going to get interesting now...he has started the war and now we r going to finish it....

now the time has come for him to go through purgatory...and believe me it's not going to fun for him....

g'nite every1...i am so angry tht i cannot even think straight to write anything

Plight of a lonely man

11 PM and i feel lonely amongst the world population of 6 billion people. have not been able to sleep and have been tossing and turnig for over 2 hrs so finally decided to come online and spend some time on the net.

life for a 20 yr old can be such a mess...people take me for a Machine with no heart or soul...i am tired of working all the time. "Hither2forlorn" meaning neglected uptill now and i feel the same as i sit to write this blog. neglected by frnds, foes and family alike. it sucks to be lonely without any1 to think abt u.

before i turned on my computer i had so much in mind tht i wanted to write but now i just don't have the words to describe how i feel. maybe i'll go back 2 sleep or at least try to sleep

hey did i say abt meeting a old frnd online today. she was in kathmandu 4 two months but she couldn;t get thorugh my phone and talk to me. have u heard such bullshit before. i mean if once she could call at 1 aM and ask me 2 come online cause she was feeling lonely and wanted to chat with some1, couldn't she make a small effort to contact me when she was here 4 two months, u know if phone didn't work then there was always mail. every1 knows i check my mails more then once a day and if she didn't want 2 meet me y did she tell me tht she was here in the first place and couldn't meet me. ignorance is the best medicine for a lonely man. if i had not known tht she was here i would be fine but knowing tht she was here but didn't meet me hurts more than anything. how can i trust her anymore.

anywz things had happy turn 2. i think i am finally in love with a girl and she likes me 2. we r meeting tomorrow during her break time. don't know wht i am supposed to talk abt with her though. i just completed my undergrad and she has just started hers, we have absolutely nothing in common. but i sincerly hope this works cause i can't take being lonely anymore.

Am I Safe?

When a group of people burn a motorcycle in front of the HMG's Office Complex with the Armed Police and Army men as onlookers, one starts to wonder abt the level of security tht the government claims is there for a country which is already in high alert and the army deployed to fight a civil war.

More then 2 billion rs. was destroyed in the capital alone with the security as a helpless onlooker. 300 companies were burnt down and still no one could do anything....and then the government comes out to assure me of the level of security tht i have....bullshit....

they r no more then fucked up people who r no humans but assholes who need to be shoved under the himalays alive

Who should be the President

Seems this question is hogging a lot of peoples attention and time....and then I read a review in one of the papers tht it should be decided by the world and not the US people as who should be the person interfering with the peoples lives....

everyone agrees tht Saddam Hussian was a treat to the world peace, but one thing i couldn;t understand is how can a person who leaves in isolation in a remort part of the world be any treat to US security when bin laden has been able to cause more damage to the world then Saddam ever did and there is no work being done to catch him.....

y does bush/blair take people to be so stupid and y r people so stupid not to understand tht....if they r so worried then y don;t they send there family members to Iraq to fight against terrorism instead of taking innocent peoples lives for the cause they believe in....if u believe in something u should take the responsibilty of sorting it out and not risk innocent peoples lives to prove ur point...

these two assholes have no work but to interfere with other poeples lives and then not take the responsibility of their security....they r the real mass murderes and should be executed before any other person is....

Finally

Phew...finally the convocation is over and i am a free man...it feels gr8 to be out of college & into the world....may god be with all the classmates and they have a gr8 future ahead of them...

well partied into the night...was up till 4 in the morning and had to sleep on the floor since there was no bed in the frnds apartments...it sucked....couldn't get any sleep......

missed the convocation picture taken at college but will upload a pic of me and my frnds during our convocating in a moment....

Busy Day Today

Hi all, it has been a busy day today with a number of things happening. Well started the day with swimming for a hour and half.

Finally started the implementation of Scrum on a dummy project "Public Transport Account Management System" using VersionOne. It's a pretty cool tool to manage a Scrum Project, do try it out.

the guys are really enthusiactic in implementing it and being the Scrum Master is really cool

War or Peace: Are we asking the Right person for it?

I was at this temple with my family and we had a big religious activity going on. Down walks a lady, a tourist and decides to camp next to us and follow our ceremony closely. After some time my family go to the main temple and I am left alone to guard all the stuff (this isn’t the good old days anymore), this lady walks up to me and inquires about the religious ceremony and I explain it to her to the best of my knowledge (which I need not tell you is not much). In the end she says she wishes peace for everyone and just asked the sleeping Vishnu for the same.

This last sentence of her had me thinking. War or Peace: Are we really asking the right person for it? Take a look at the history of our religion and we find quite a few examples were god has used war to justify peace. But is the world today so perfect that we can justify peace with war? America under the leadership of G. W. Bush tried to do the same but look at the world after 9/11. So back to the same question, are we asking the right person for peace?

There was this small story which got around a lot as forwarded mail (most of them are usually junk, but then Lotus also grows in mud) where true meaning of peace was given as “peace does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble, or hard work. Peace means to be in the midst of all those things and still be calm in your heart.”

So where is peace after all? And I came to this conclusion that peace is in our hearts, amongst the one we love and share our life with. Peace like war is our choice. If we are in war with our own self, we’ll be in war with the world. God didn’t give us war, it can’t give us peace. All it can give us is the strength to be oneself and believe in it and help others do it. Like god cannot change the course of a river either for good or bad, it cannot dictate war or peace in our lives.

If god can’t then can Religion give us peace? Each religion talks of peace in life and ways to achieve. But still it can’t give us peace. all it can do is show us the path but we have to walk that path, religion will not do it for us. Like god religion didn’t give us war. All it gave us was the path to god.

Then what can give us peace? Ever heard of hope and faith? These are the two things that can give us peace. Man does not live on bread. He lives on hope. Hope of a better tomorrow, hope of a happier future and this hope is based on the faith in oneself, ones fellow being and once religion and culture.

"Peace comes within the souls of men, when they realize their oneness with the Universe, when they realize it is really everywhere ... It is within each one of us."

I am studying to be a scrum master. The concept is really cool to manage the development of Software. But I havn't found much on off-shore development using Scrum.

If anyone reading this blog has any idea about it please help me out

this is just the normal day, except that today i had lunch outside the office cause the cook was gone for some work.